Into the woods

Fast forward to our time in the Angeles National Forest...

At first we set up camp by the side of a winding road with houses on one side and terrain on the other.  I'll never forget the first morning there... I woke up to find the most beautiful bouquet of flowers you had picked that morning.  First flowers I'd ever gotten from a guy.  They meant more than you could imagine. :)  Remember the look on the cop's face when you told him there used to be a spider in that mason jar??  And the random drunk ass teenagers who parked a few feet away and probably thought we were serial killers? XD

I remember when we found our perfect campsite.  It was quiet and peaceful.  I felt so free!  I'll admit I was terrified of the bugs and potential snakes. :)  But your presence made me feel totally secure.  Putting up those tents was SUCH a pain in the ass!  

But what happened inside them was so magical…that was my first time with you, remember?  I didn't know what was going to happen because I had no idea if you were even attracted to me.  So I got cozy in the sleeping bag and rolled over facing away from you.  As soon as I rolled over you said "OH OK, I get it." lol and I immediately rolled back to you and said "No no no that's not what I was trying to get across!!" and we lay there for a while.  I don't remember how it started, but I definitely remember how much joy I had in your arms.  Every time was intense and powerful and I knew it was meant to be.  I'll never forget this particular moment after one mind-blowing time together:  you held me and said quietly "I think I love you."  Darling, I came alive.  If I could pick one moment to define when I knew for sure that I was in hopelessly and forever love with you, it was the moment you said those words.  

From then on I was in a dream world.  Even though at times we had no money and no cigarettes except for the ones we rolled with Lake's leftover tobacco, I felt like I owned the world.  I was so perfectly happy and I loved you so deeply.  You took my body and mind to places I couldn't have even imagined.  I loved waking up with the sunrise and doing nearly-naked yoga on the table while you smiled up at me.  So much to remember… messing around on the table and then I freaked out when Lake drove up and I realized I had no pants on.   Passing out in your arms again and again, waking up in a mindless heaven.  I began to learn about the fine line between pleasure and pain, and how to embrace both sides.  I had never orgasmed with a man until I was with you.  You seemed to instinctively know how to drive my body wild.  

My senses were so alive…I never wanted this to end.  We watched Supertroopers a million times, but I never remembered any of it because I was always lying across you, so high...lost in all-consuming pleasure.

Remember climbing that mountain with Lake?  (I swear I never would have done that if you hadn't promised me a cigarette at the top!!)

Oh and, BLUE ONE.  ;)

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